Take your second chances...

 
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Take your second chances...

Four years ago to almost the day, my parents took my family and my sisters family to Florida for a vacation. We had been planning it for years.. At that time in my life, I had lived my entire life as a pleaser and couldn’t disappoint any of them.  I hated having that feeling I was disappointing someone. However, I already knew when we got back to glorious Wisconsin, I would be telling my husband I wanted a divorce. No way to sugar coat that..It was not the trip of a lifetime.

And now four years later,I am divorced and happy.   I mean I have my moments but overall it took the last 4 years to get to this point. The point of life where I’m happy about my choices and happy about the life I’m living. I had my 3 kids for spring break so off to Florida we were going... This was my second chance.  

I was so excited for this trip but also so nervous... I had to do all the planning and be responsible for getting 3 kids to Florida..  And just hoping my son didn’t put a so-called weapon into his pocket and we will be hauled off.. It was a lot of responsibility for all of us. I had to rely also on my kids to be responsible and help out when I needed.  Moments before we left, I thought am I crazy to do this.

But once the trip started, it was amazing.  This trip probably meant more to me than they anyone will ever know... to my kids it was 8 days in the sun.. and to me it was my second chance. This was  my second chance from 4 years ago. It just showed me how your life can change... How we make choices, how scared we are at that time, and how in time it does work out.  I could have never imagined all of the changes as a person that you go through in 4 years with a divorce. I finally got to be the person I wanted to be...

4 years ago, I would have been the mom that had the lunches packed the night before, been yelling at my kids to be up by 7, to be at the beach by 8 am.. and I would not have relaxed for a minute on a vacation.  I did not enjoy being that person. I would have made sure I was pleasing everyone, just not myself.

Today, I am so relaxed. I am not worried about pleasing everyone. I am not worried about trying to do a million things in one day. I am not worried about seeing every attraction in Florida in 8 days. I made choices that have made my happy.  

I took this trip day by day.  I let my kids sleep til 11 and I got to go for morning runs. I got to sit and drink coffee in the sun.  I got to think about my life and my future. We swam, we laughed, we had ice cream everyday, we stayed up til midnight..   We got to drive to the beach at whatever time we got up…and some days we just hung out. I have never seen my kids so relaxed or just having fun.  They were happy, really happy. I think we all worry about our kids everyday and then sometimes you look at them and know they are really happy. I got to sit and watch them and just relax.  

So yes,  we get re-dos in life and second chances.  We get a second chance to do it again.. maybe different or better this time.  Maybe things weren’t as clear the first time or maybe you didn’t have the confidence at that time....but in the end take your second chance.