Do it for yourself...no guilt
Do it for yourself…no guilt
I didn’t realize that I wanted to do so many things in life. I didn’t realize that I didn’t share a lot of the same goals and interests as my husband. I would always feel guilty for wanting to do the things I enjoyed. So I just went along with everything. You know when just do what you think you should be doing or don’t speak up for yourself.. I never had that excited or accomplished feeling. I think sometimes we fall into this rut and it’s hard to get out. And if I did do something I enjoyed, I would feel incredibly guilty. Sometimes we just do what we think is expected. We don’t speak up for our own wants. I had always done what was expected…
I have no guilty feelings for my divorce anymore... which took years to get to that point. It does take years to finally be able to really focus on you. I know now that it’s totally ok that my marriage did not work out. I know that I want to focus on other areas of my life.. areas that can give me excitement and a sense of accomplishment.
I went back to school and got my degree in health and wellness management because my passion is living healthy. I wanted to learn more about that lifestyle and to eventually teach others. I have a full time career in another field, but I work part time in a fitness center now just to get some experience. Plus I love it! When you do something you love, it makes all the difference. It gave me such excitement and encouragement to have something to work towards. Sometimes now I wonder how I actually did it and survived...I’m pretty sure it will just the feeling of doing something for yourself.
It doesn’t matter if you want to go back to school, try a new church, find a new career, or start something that you have always dreamed about.. it shouldn’t matter if it’s not what’s expected of you.. it’s scary to finally start something new. Its really scary now without additional support. But once you start, you will not want to give up the excitement.
I can not explain how finally I felt like I had done something for myself and I loved it. I don’t think it matters on what stage you are in life. It’s ok to change your mind or follow another path, just don’t feel guilty. Be proud!